Normally I don’t care what a sketchbook looks like as long as the quality of the paper is good.
Thanks to Janaschi for sharing the link at a place of the internet where things can be shared!
Been a while since i made an entry here. Things have been good and busy, so i didn’t really have a reason to write, but here i am on my lunch break on my phone feeling like the smallest thing in the world.
I’ve been continuously making mistakes at work recently, and was warned that if another mistake was made, i’d be let go. I know i’ve been told to be careful and slow down to reduce mistakes, and i have been working on it, but for every other way i find to help myself, i end up finding another thing to miss in the process.
I can’t tell if i’m psyching myself out, and making more mistakes because i’m nervous. I’ve taken this job so seriously because i’m learning so much, and it is valuable and rare for me to get a chance like this—and it frustrates me so much that i’ve never felt like i should be at ease with my job, that i’m trying and still failing.
My boyfriend tells me i haven’t had the best luck with getting projects that let me show off my skills, and i think there is merit to that. I’ve hardly considered it, but most everything i’m doing now is something i’d consider a weakness. It made me consider how much this position means to me—i’m gaining a lot of knowledge, but my skill isn’t even close to handling what is expected.
I’ve been juggling jobs i feel i’m only okay at for so long without practicing things i am better at, i feel almost like i’m not sure what i’m good at anymore. I’ve been looking at other job postings to remind myself of what’s out there. I have a secure job now, and i’d rather make it to at least one year before moving on. We’ll see…
Still at work, what the fucking shit.
Why do i have to stay late because the client couldn’t get us the copy changes on time for a meeting in the morning?
Fuck that noise, why am i even doing this?
I have been loving work lately, but today everything just seems so unnecessary. I’m currently waiting for an email so i can make a file, which then has to be approved by a guy that already went home before i can send the final version to the person who needs it.
So, i have to stay late because i don’t have my own company email i can access through my phone or at home, on something that should have gone out hours ago. Ugh.